I Can't Breathe
July 22, 2020
Breath Taking
It’s sweltering hot chained to the dark hull of this sailing ship
I can’t breathe
This white man’s sweat-stenched body pounding on top of me
I can’t breathe
Shot by a U.S. Army soldier on my own people’s reservation
I can’t breathe
This noose around my neck yanked by my own body weight tightens so fast
I can’t breathe
Thrown in a dark solitary cell for marching for women’s right to vote
I can’t breathe
Shoved off the train and crammed into this gas chamber
I can’t breathe
Thick smoke from the fire and I'm trapped on the top floor of this shirt factory
I can’t breathe
Deep in this old coal mine, the soot is so dense
I can’t breathe
An innocent man waiting for the switch in this cold electric chair
I can’t breathe
Dying of AIDS all alone, people too afraid to touch me
I can’t breathe
A young gay man beaten and tied to a ranch fence post out on this prairie
I can’t breathe
Attacked in a dark alley, I'm left to die for being trans
I can’t breathe
I'm a second grader fallen from my desk, gunned down in my elementary school classroom
I can’t breathe
People running and screaming from this gay nightclub, I am hit
I can’t breathe
Can’t take this bullying anymore, I decided to hang myself, at last
I can’t breathe
Quietly worshiping in my mosque, then I am shot in the neck out of nowhere
I can’t breathe
Lost my job and my healthcare, now I'm dying from cancer alone at home
I can’t breathe
My husband beat me harder than usual today, I’m crumpled on the floor
I can’t breathe
My black head is locked in this white police choke hold
I can’t breathe
They tore me from my mother’s arms and put me all alone in this cage
I can’t breathe
Walking in a peaceful protest, they shot tear gas in my face
I can’t breathe
Left in this COVID ICU bed, no family allowed, this hoax will kill me yet
I can’t breathe
An innocent black man, I got this police boot on my neck eight minutes, 46 seconds
I can’t breathe
Kristin L Roush
This is the horror movie. Us.
Posted by: Jessica Fleming | July 23, 2020 at 04:58 AM
That’s a powerful message! I love it! I miss our little get together chats!
Posted by: Laura Cooper | July 23, 2020 at 05:31 AM
So nice to hear from you, Laura! Thanks for posting a comment. Be well!
Posted by: Kris | July 23, 2020 at 09:15 AM
Hi Jessica,
I know. It's very dark and sad. I've been understanding lately the unwanted gift of the dark side mirror. This has been Trump's gift to me. I am being careful now to not so quickly add the "up" side perspective in order to rescue myself from discomfort. Like a wise mother saying to her child, "No, you just sit there awhile and think about what you've done." I have never hung a black man, but I have stayed silent in the presence of a racial joke. So, yes, on the continuum, I participated in hanging that black man. These are hard times in the U.S. --- Period.
Kris
Posted by: Kris | July 23, 2020 at 09:24 AM
I'm in tears.
Posted by: Rodolfo Espindola | July 23, 2020 at 10:01 AM
Rodolpho,
Thank you for taking the time to read each line slowly. And thank you so much for taking the time to leave your moving comment.
Peace
Posted by: Kris | July 23, 2020 at 10:25 AM
Kris,
Thank you for taking the time to write each line slowly! This piece is so compelling and sad and maddening and horrifying and terrifying and and and!
Thank you for writing and posting this. And I love all the comments.
These times - it's so hard to breathe!
With Love,
Mary
Posted by: Mary Maulsby | July 25, 2020 at 07:37 AM
Thank you, so much, Mary. Your feedback means a lot to me. I’ve never written something so sad. But, it’s real. I appreciate your writer’s perspective.
Love you,
Kris
Posted by: Kris Roush | July 26, 2020 at 03:55 PM